Wherever we go...

 

Hello and welcome to my old blog :-) 

Glad you found your way somehow to this remote place.

That’s where I am right now. Some may seem that’s a place far away from home but it is not (at least physically). I started my journey probably in December last year when I had the feeling of something growing inside…some feeling of ‘stuck’ some bigger need of change maybe.

After many years I guess of 'just living' and not really feeling that something is missing, it luckily  became very clear when I looked back to some time. Some time many many years ago actually. The time I started my last journey back in Australia, the time you can read below. Maybe this blog is a blog about changes, about chances or choices, who knows if I always need to step aside out of the actual pattern of life to get to the point I seek. Maybe it’s that what defines my life as it’s purpose or maybe it’s just a time out of the ‘real life’ how many people call it (haha which may be an illusion all together).

December last year after little changes in the previous years (breakups, changes in work, moving flat…) it felt like no matter what I try nothing really helps the state I’m in. The state I can’t even name yet. A state of stuck of ‘where are all the cool things’ a maybe just boring state.

The paradox is my life’s not boring at all :) , I do have many friends in the place I live. My week is full of so many fun things, dancing, singing, gym, watching shows with friends, discussions and cooking seasons with flatmates…just to name some things.

Crazy I guess that’s the life people want to live or people tell that’s how you live a good life …idk

So how the hank that’s not what made me happy in the end. It all left me sit with some kind of ‘that’s it’ …’that’s all there is’….can’t be… feeling.

And don’t get me wrong, it’s not the ‘more’ I’m seeking, during lockdown I luckily learned that less things to do/have is sometime more to win. I’m very thankfull for this experience!

Back so December :P haha. All I didn’t change during all those years has been my job. Well there have been some changes within my job but in the end of the day I was more stressed than finding it fulfilling (I guess that’s a good indicator that something’s odd). Hard to say what it has been….was working in a nice team (did laugh a lot) had good relationship with my boss and still I had this ‘and now’ feeling. Can’t even tell from where it comes.

So in new year’s eve and some days later I was thinking a lot and decided to change the last thing I didn’t try to change yet…which was my job.

My thoughts went from…’I’ll quit my job as soon as I find another one’ over ‘I’ll quit my job and then try to find another one’ (in case I don’t find another job straight away I said I’ll take a break and go travelling)…then I thought but what if I find a job straight away, then I can’t go traveling :)

That was the time when I figured out…I have to quit my job and go traveling :D

Do you know this situation if you can’t decide between two meals u have to choose…u throw a coin which decides for the 2. Meal but then u said….no I take the first one :D (u actually knew it already but u didn’t know u know) that has been the case.

It was also the time where I again was so sure about what I really need. It’s like a voice I didn’t listen to for many years when I try to live life as I think it’s the way to.

 

So I decided in December/January to quit my job and travel around à Destination Bhutan/Nepal maybe some further Asian countries. The plan was to go on land with hitching a lift or trains and busses through all the countries meeting all this beautiful cultures. But yea plans where different for everyone back in January. Sadly Bhutan and Nepal had closed borders all the time I checked.

So many things to learn and change I thought by the time I finish the last big project I was mainly involved (by June) maybe things change and countries will open up again…. Yeahh :D I tought…

In the end even though many strings pull to those countries (I now add Taiwan and Philippines to the list) I decided to travel with a camper van and stay within ‘driving home within a few days if necessary’-reach, named Europe.

I bought a camper by the end of June …went through fixing and administration process to get it registered as a ‘historical vehicle’ (which has many advantages in Germany and is possible with vehicles older than 30 years), changed gearbox and got new TÜV by the end of July and drove it all the way to my parents place to repair, fix and add many many little and big things to get the inside into shape. There is a workshop and many tools and a car port at my parents place which is very convenient to ‘do’ things at the car…Plus it was nice to not think about lunch/dinner while I was working, and my parents even could help with smaller or bigger tasks :)

I thought I can finish all jobs within 1 or 2 month…but even I cut out all not entirely necessary jobs of my list e.g. pulling all windows out and reseal it, repaint everything inside/outside…it took me 3 month to do everything which I decided is necessary. A huuuuge part of the time I was reading how to install and fix things, researching if the information is really correct (I found so much bullsh*t in those online forums) browsing different discussions, watching youtube, contacting sellers and producers and ordering things.

The car (named Jack) has now new bath floor, new bath wall, built in dry toilet, fixed the ‘sink’, new tap and a little decoration…almost complete new electrical wiring with 480W solar, 500Ah LiFePo4 Akku, charge control for power from grid, light machine or solar, inverter 3000W for 230V, many power plugs and USB charging points, new built in bed (140 before 120), fixed leakage at 3 points, fixed gas cooker, installation of LPG tanks for LPG usage for fridge, heater, warm water and cooking (now I can fill up LPG (Gas) at every patrol station without getting a new bottle each other country I’m traveling to), new curtains, new GPS Android radio with 4 speakers, made passenger chair to be able to turn, insulated the floor for winter camping, fixed all hinges and doors to the cupboards, changed and installed new lightning, bought a scooter to but it on the back of the van to be more mobile, sealed and finally decorated Jacky so I can pack and move in…    

As an example I attached some pictures of the bathroom fixing process 

 Before state:

 

Process.....

After finish state:

 

 To be continued ……

 

Oh woooow

Oh woooow

The last blog entry was long long time ago. where to start and where to end?

First of all I should talk about the incredible wonderful festivals on french island. Its hard to describe if you weren't there. Some of you best awesome guys I met there will read this now. You just have to know, I really love u and I really enjoyed the time with you.

A festival in Australia isn't the same as a festival in Germany. The first festival on french island was the new years eve festival. The music started at 4pm and ended at 4pm. 24H music on two stages. And thousands of nice people, they just want to share love and hugs and kisses. This is the paradise for me in this state of life, at this time, I really learned whats the only thing people need. Love hugs and kisses. No sex no erotic, just LOVE. Is it so unused for all other people I met before? Most of you guys will say, 'hey love and acceptation is what I already know' you have no idea! Be your self and get loved for this. Get a hug for this get a compliment like “your aura is sooo nice, I am so happy to meet you in this world (/in this life or even in this awesome place)”. And you get it as a compliment u only could believe in you just feel that's the truth. And how good is this? To know that oneself is nice and to learn how to love oneself is one thing but to hear this from so many unknown persons is like after to get to this point “i love myself” get goodies and goodies more and more, ha I feel like a loved dog :P

But anyway, want to talk about the festival. We build everything up weeks before. Organizations and constructions plans and a lot of work but at least was it nothing compared with what we get. Me and Bob built a bridge construction, sean an lee built the stage. And several other guys tents tracks bars....at the end everything was prepared for the festival. Ha, a festival without toilet. “Just in the bush”. Why isn't there a festival like this in Germany? If it's to hot, just go under a tree jump in the see or in the lake. No in Germany, not possible, “what if someone jumps or fell off the tree while be drunk, or fell in the water or, or, or. Just trust the people and let them think and let them learn.

I am writing this here while sitting in my van ('s name is charlie). Charlie was sick and so we have to spent 3 days in Port Augusta to repair him. Dam expensive cars, but this is an other story i'll tell u later.

The first festival was quite short, it come fast and ended fast. For this festival there were two german friends to celebrate the new year with me together. Ha those (guy and girl) I had to show first how to get rid of worries. To easy to say but more easy to live. Like I wrote, the last things u get rid of yourself are the tan lines. Yes it's still unused for me to be naked while all other are starring, even the guys. But that's the nature and we are not use to the nature? Yes, this is probably true :(. Anyway after a while they get used to it and stopped starring. I just say “yes look as my dick as much as you can and get use to it. Because this is the only way to get this conditions back to normal. And believe me, naked people are happier one. Ha, at the end of our farmwork time me and 4 other female wwoofers were naked at the beach. It was hard for some to get to this point but at the end they can be soooo glad now, and they are. Its a kind of strength inner strength to be how you are. But for this we will love you. Love u girls had such a awesome time at french island with you, I will never forget. Like I wrote in the guestbook before I left McLeod Farm. “It feels I came with nothing and left with everything. There I soo much love and I just thought I only can be happy with my last love, ha, last love, new love, love just love I will love u always and forever all of you girls, ha that's fucking awesome. Where was I – ah ya the festival the love, me the girls, no lets call them ladies or women, no more girls, let's grow up and be a child, as I maybe always will be.

But yeah let's go on with the festival. The new years eve festival was over at the 1. January and at the 3. January started fest la frog. Or better the bigger preparation. The festival over new year was 'just a festival' but this one war a working, building, creative, come together, sharing festival. You can work to get 'frogs' or buy one 'frog' for 5 $. And with one frog you get breakfast 2 frogs dinner or lunch one frog one cider or beer. Yes it's expensive to drink alcohol in Australia but yeay, it's not that common here anyway. If your are just yourself it's more what everyone likes. Even more accepted than alcohol are drugs in Australia, if your read this and you are from Germany, you will say, ouh drugs, all are bad. But yes, if you say this, then you have actually no idea how bad alcohol is. But this is another story. Back to the festival, there were workshops every day where people talk about alternative forms how to live together and how to share resources. Why does everyone in Germany has a car, why does everyone has tools in their workshop, so much stuff and if you have something, you bought everyone will borrow it and after a wile its broken and you have to buy it again. Just buy everything together, plan together live together not separately.

There was a place called Healing Space where you can just relax under trees give and get massages for free. There was a secret fire which was burning all the time, the first fire started on the fire ceremony by aboriginal peoples. The other fires have been lit with fire from these and we had a fire circle. This is a place where people can show what they can do with their fire twirling or sticks or or every show with fire. This place was next to the drumming space where drummers played African beats around the fire. There was a love shake, if u are in the love shake you have to share love with kisses or hugs without any kind of expectations. Just do it just live, just love.

Ouh I found love at exactly the point where I started to be happy independently. And that's what she sad. At this point came the most awesomest beautiful woman in my life. Kiana, a lady from Australia. She's cute smart pretty....to much for these weak words. We both love just the way we are. Funny, hey we laughed almost 2 days till she had to go. And from this day when she left, I felt that something is missing and I felt unhappy. But what is this unhappiness if you always need another person to be happy. Then I sad, no you were happy before and maybe you will never see her so just be independent. Have you ever loved independently? What stupid new stuff is this in my life, but lets play this game. And I play it pretty good now. I have to learn, sometimes few times a day, but it runs. What if I will never see her from one day to the next? As she says, I will love her from a distance, but I will still love her. That's it, and to be independent I have to trust in god in the universe in me in what ever that I get what I need to be happy. It is here it is there all the time I only have to allow it. And if I need woman to be happy, god knows, he will help me. Ha and the answer after this meditation at the next day where two nice pretty interesting girls. Just came, just like hey you are nice, lets talk. And I just get with this the sign that I am on the right way. Independent love, ha the last time was it unconditional, its pretty similar. Its maybe the opposite maybe the same maybe the partner what ever its the new thing I am trying now. Since I recognize that god is a comic artist and has fun to make stupid funny things in the humans life, why to life then in strict rules everybody is living in without knowing why, ha how funny human are. Like ants. But yeay as you play another game as your friends, they will be maybe never your friends, they don't make or like changes maybe so goodbye though. Hello thousand new friends and what is better than friends they love u and show u?

Enough philosophy there will be plenty new post in my other plot if I find time to type them in to the computer. Its like I am learning faster than I can write all. But yeay I thing that's IN that's in love in life are u in a life now, then don't forget to love.

That's it my friends from the farm. I just wonna inform you that I have a campervan now. I bought it for 2000 bugs and spend now almost the same in reparation camping insurance and registration. Before I start my trip to Perth, I had some beautiful lovely days in Melbourne with new friends of the festival and my love Kiana. All is like a fairytale like I am in the wonderland. And she is my elf, I can't wait to see the waterfalls and ride with you and your horses trough the wild.

Ohhh Woooooww               

BIG Picture Appendix

     

lucy in the sky with diamonds

clink clink tina clink

the first view to the sea, look at my bright shoes :)

 a nice dude standing all the time in this cold pond

i found this awesome couch bar in Fitzroy, Melbourne

 This is the bar downstairs

strong soldiers

 look at my bright shoes    

                                  

  ok, gone, dont jump over a river expecting solid ground at the other side

  this is my cell where i am living

 nice fireguys making some musik

 another sunset picture

 look at Amys watch, Happy-time all the time

 clouds and sun, amazing 

 beach beach

 another sunset picture

     what do you thing ?

 yeah ???

 YEAAHH !!!

 every day working hands....

 the instant picture, instant EVERYTHING

 one night without moskitos...thats a dream

not another sunset picture, the "burning clouds"

 but also the moon is nice here 

 fit ? FIT !

 the roof, the roof, the roof is on fire

 BUT, its still ALL ABOUT LOVE

 yeeiii little ducklings

 and the last one

 piggi pig pig, sooo cute

 at Amys, the "farm chicks"

 sit down and relaxe :)

 come together...right now

 mon bonne creation "gluehwein on ice" ... NICE !!!

French Island and Melbourne: Happy Christmas Eve and for sure New Years Eve

French Island and Melbourne third:

Hi guys how are u doing :)

So this is my last Post till Christmas and maybe till New Years Eve. Since the last post there were lots of things happen at the farm. Actually while I first tried to upload my last blog post there was a fire at the building next to me. It was like a very crazy thing. My mother tried to reach me at phone but there were problems in the line so, I went out to talk to my mother 3 times ( I was in Marks house and I don't want to wake him up). And every time I cant see anything abnormal or strange with the building next to Marks house. And then I went back in and 10 minutes later I heard this baaanngs. Like somebody is shooting. I thought it were animals first, but then it became louder and louder. And when I looked out, the whole building on fire. I woke everybody up to be sure if the fire catches on the other buildings that nobody is in. You can actually do in this moment: nothing. We guys were standing around (haha I sat on the roof next to the building on fire) armed with fire extinguisher till the firemen were coming. But yes they cant do anything else then holding the hose on the flames but the building is fucked now. The whole roof was asbestos but still in flames till nothing else then the wals and a lot of smoke lefts. In the building was luckily old stuff from wwoofers and the food of the chickens. They are thinking that it's an electrical defect causes the fire but we will never know.

Next things were close to Christmas Sarah Bob Brett and Beka were leaving and I was the last days alone with Amy on the farm. The fireguys and other festival organisators came around and we had a couple of nice days with new fire shows, good drinks and of cause heaps of stuff to talk about. I finished with Bob the bridge for the festival till we run out of wood, repaired the tractor, learned how to weld and we get little babies.

There are two little piggy piglets, ooh such a cute, 7 little ducky ducklings. But how bad is the way of life. The little ducklings are all gone now. One died we think because of weakness, 5 just disappeared (we think a maybe the pigs or a cat had eaten them) and the last one get refused by the mother. We tried to rescue the last one but we think it was to cold in the first days without the mother. Really sad, but thats the way of life.

Another way of live is to kill the animals. On one day, there was a man arriving to kill two cows and two bigs. And the girls said they dont want to see how the animals get killed. And I thought, no, its maybe hard to see passing a live. But I thought I eat almost every day meet without thinking about the farmer who has to give maybe his favourite animal away. And at this morning the biggest male pick came to me and Amy to watch us having our breakfast. And Mark came around and sad to the pig, "you will die later" and with this sentence I get cold and I thought this pig needs my protection and I can prevent the killing of this animal. But then I thought, if its not this, then its an other pig. Mark needs the money and the food to feet us, to feet me. And then I thought its hard to kill something but if I eat animals almost every day, I have to be strong enough to watch them passing away. So I watched the shooting of the pigs and the processing of the pigs and cows. And yes its smelling strong and yes its weird. But till the head and the innards are away, then its just a piece of meet and bones. 

After a few more excited days of the farm and a couple of naked sun baths Christmas gets closer. Ah I forgot, we did secret santa or KK ("Wichteln" in german). I had to make a present for Josefin the Swedish girl. And I though a lot about the present. You cant buy anything on the island, so it was a very creative thing. I knew that she got engaged couple of days before and I thought about a plaque of wood and with her and her girlfriends name soldered. But I had also some god conversations about energy and love with her and I know what she loves the company of a special tree. So I thought about doing something in this direction for her but I actually dont know what to do. In my free time I made some experiments with bones and wood to build a flute. And then I got the idea to make her a little flute as a neckless. I tried hard and had a couple of ideas to build one but I never get a tone out of the little whistles. I had actually a dream a night before the last day where I can build something. And I tried this idea of my dream and one can hear tone a little. Ok and then I went out to get some wood of her favourite tree, the twisted tree. This is actually an amazing tree. Its growing around its centre. It looks like a drill and also the branches are growing around this centre. But the tree fell over before I came to the farm she sad (she was at the farm before in winter). The tree is still growing horizontal and also twisting. I found a root in a perfect size and I could feel the energy of the tree in this root, you cant imagine, its amazing!!! And actually the bark of the root is twisted too. So I made a flute out of this root with 3 holes and made a neckless out of this flute. I tried to get a tone out of this flute but its hard. And then I get it. I should never be a normal flute. We were talking that much about energy and spirits that I couldn't see it, but I saw, its a spirit flute to talk to the spirits.

On this time I was so sure thats exactly what it should be. I get so happy then.

We had a really nice night all together but I know I have to finish the flute in the night. I dont know what to do, but I thought to do some meditation over the flute. I know this sounds crazy and some of you will know or even called me crazy before but I just had this feeling inside of me just...let it be

And thats what happened I had this crazy, like a drug trip, time while meditation and I know exactly what to do. If somebody ever wants to know more, just ask but I dont want to bore my friends they never get into this. So I put two spells on the flute, one for "change" I thought about, if you really want to change something in your life its the most important thing to actually know that there is a problem and the next big step is to it make this decision to change something. And then everything will happen to change yourself but to know that one need help and to know that help is always around, is not easy. And this is my first present for her. A call to the spirits, asking for help.

The next thing is a protecting thing. Its a simple thing but important. And I didn't know but then I cant say whats the third spell I have to put on the flute. So I let it free this slot and the third present for her is to teach her how to do this spells and she has to descide whats the last spell. After this meditation, this root this flute feels soooo strong so babaaam fuck I couldn't let it in my room so I let it out over night. The next day was the day when everybody gets their presents. So the big day. And the presents were all fucking awesome. Haha Josefin had Amy and made her a neckless, too, Amy get Becka and made her a beautiful pocket Beka gets Sarah and made her a great book with things from the farm and Sarah painted a fucking beautiful postcard of the farm for me. So cute, so good. And Josefin just were happy like hell. I know that she would feel this fucking strong energy after the meditation and she did. She hold it in her hand and opened her mouth couldn't day anything. Just "whooow oh my good". And soo crazy. A week before Josefin talked to Beka about protection and that she has this feeling to protect herself. And also she found a book about spells and she found it really exciting and would lern it. So crazy this just had to get happened. And I never did something with spells I just had this feeling to do it and it was like I never did something else. I really dont know what it is but its like we all know what we need and thats what it is and ..... ok ok i'll get too philosophical again and at this point I want you to know, that I started an other blog to talk about this feeling stuff this energy and philosophical developing what I am thinking about. Just ask me about the adress, this is something I'll write in german.

Christmas Christmas Christmas. Whats Christmas without snow, without jumpers and with a lot of sunscreen and too hot days. I can tell you, its not the same. I miss the snow I miss the ice-skating on the lake of constance I miss the bowled wine, the "plaetzchen" and my family. Big kisses at this point back home!

I get off the Island to celebrate a pre Christmas party at Amys. The party was yesterday at the 23. but we went off the Island at the 21. So I had another amazing days here with Amy and her friends...woooww. At the 21. I went with a friend called Joel to a Punk fest in a great pub. Afterwards Amys friend Tim took me up with his car to join another party, called a duf. This is a illegal psytronic festival normally in the bush. But this one was at a empty great place next to a river. Woww. This party was fucking awesome. I dont know when the party started, but we get there at 1am and stayed there the fucking whole night and day, dancing. I never danced that long till we get home at 5pm. Going out at 7-8pm till 5 pm partying almost 24 hours. The plan was at the 22. to buy some ingredients for cake and "gluehwein". But yeah, thats it. Partyed to long. Amy only sad "welcome to our live". Ha this is a place where I could stay. Some people know that I am a night person. I'm saying things like "the important and interesting things happen in the night" and wooww :) such a lovely place with lovely people and dancing all time. If there is no more water, somebody will but water and share it with other. And then you are going to buy some food and you will share it...its like a big family and thats all for free. Music all the time and really good DJ's. Yeah and the next day after this two days there is the pre Christmas Party on Amys flat. It was only a quiet party with a lot of food and water pistols and ice. I made some "gluehwein" and "tiroler" nut cake and served it later when it gets colder. And there it is, with a warm cup of "gluehwein" the Christmas feeling :). Everybody enjoyed the wine and it was the best "gluehwein" I ever had. I found the recipe at the internet and its really tasty. To bad I thought thats soo hot. To hot for an hot drink, and today I had the idea. Do you remember, if you read my blog, in Korea there is everything in hot AND cold. So I put in the last cup I found this morning ICE. And fucking hell, this is awesome. I never was so proud. This is the idea of the last few days of this awesome year :D "gluewein" on ice. Its really good, I couldn't believe. But yes, watch the picture...

So my friends have a good time and enjoy your time with your family, because I cant this year and keep on reading, love u all :-*    xoxo

French Island: numero duo

French Island second:

Little update till the last post. We are now 4 wwoofers. The new one is Sarah and yes she is also from the UK. She lived in Melbourne for some month and wants to get the second holiday visa as well. She arrived nearly a week before and does really enjoy everything here. Well she needed some days to get away from the city life feeling but now she is really happy to be here. She had a date this weekend in the city but she didn’t want to go because she already loves this place :-) here. But she’s back on Sunday, oh it’s today. She will be back in some hours. The boat (they call a normal boat a ferry) goes only 3 times a day. There is a (car-)ferry also but you have to book these and there is only space for two cars, so this is nothing compared with the ferries in Constance. Yesterday Josephine a girl from Sweden arrived. So till today we are 5 wwoofers 4 girls and me. Yes I am a lucky man (with fire in my hands). And I don’t have to say that’s all about love on this place, I already did.

There are some new things I did the last days. I learned how to drive the tractor and use the different tools. I build and repaired the fence around the vegetables garden, repaired a broken bridge for the festival...and so one. Once a guy came with his truck to get some cows and castrate the new born. For this we had to bring them all together and to get sure to get all we have to walk to and move every cow on the area. This took half a day only to get these around 80 cows. But it was a lot of fun.

After the work I can do whatever I want. One of my favourites is to climb trees. There a thousands of trees around and they are quite high. Sometimes I met koalas (but it’s better not to climb with them. Oh they are friendly but if they are around and want to climb on one, then you get a problem. They have long and sharp claws like a buzzard or an eagle). I’ve also seen some parrots sitting only the branch next to me while chatting with each other. Or yes for shore lots of different kinds of other birds. They all like to stop on the top of the trees where I am sitting :-) . It’s also a lot of fun to climb the different roofs. Now I can get on the top of every roof without a ladder. And there are some roofs they are pretty good to watch the sunsets. Ohh did I ever talk about the pretty sunsets before? You can’t imagine. It’s sooo beautiful awesome nice and whatever fucking good. Take the best sunset you had before and imagine you can have this or a better one here every day. I stopped myself taking pictures of these because my camera will get full only with sunset pictures. In the last two weeks there were a partial solar eclipse and a lunar eclipse. Amy flew to Cairns for the Eclipse Festival to see the eclipse. This was a festival over a week with awesome music and couple of stages with 24 hours live music. Oh at this point I can tell you about the festival on this island I wrote before. To be right; there will be two. One festival for new years eve (this is a two or three day festival with two stages and 24 hours life music run only on solar power and battery) and the other one is a bigger festival called “fest la frog” you can have a look here. For shore we’ll sell self grown food, juice, beer and stuff like this. It’s very interesting to help to organize stuff for the festival (repairing the bridge, building the stage, fencing up the area and we do this stuff with things we have. For the stage we use wood we get out of the forest and to fell the trees and cut them into pieces. It’s funny to see how exact you can build everything with only a few tools. But you have to know. The festival will be a big alternative place with a lot of workshops, mud baths, fireplaces and fire shows. The fire show people came here 3 times now. They also help to keep everything running and are such awesome persons. You can talk to them the whole night about stars, ghosts and reincarnation or other mystery and spiritual stuff. This is such a good place here to do this. Everybody is talking about unconditional love (we would translate this with “love without borders”) hugging and being together. It’s so normal to lay arm in arm with everyone you want. I already know things like this with my friends in Constance but it’s such a good feeling to see that’s all love is about. The first day Sarah arrived and we talked to her about this “hugging and touching each other” thing she did a strange face and looked scared. But we sad you will see, it’s not an erotic thing it’s less erotic than it sounds it’s all about love. And now only after a week, she also enjoys pass a way of another person while touching those. Sounds very wired to write this and it is, maybe while you read, maybe one is only possible to understand or to enjoy while living this. But I’m sure some out of you will understand. So don’t be scared when I am back in Germany (ouh this is a funny picture in my head now :-) )and I will always touch and hug you. That’s the way of love. Mark believes in unconditional love. And what he is thinking about this love is exactly the German translation. Love without borders. And you CAN love without borders. EVERYONE. This is some big lesson I had so learn and I still learn. Did you ever try to love everyone and not only one person? I know it’s something that doesn’t fit into the head... But it does. And it’s good. It’s unconditional.

Oh I am talking to much Philosophy stuff and to little stuff about my journey and this kind of stuff. Maybe I have to write a separate Philosophy and Spiritual Blog - to talk about these experiences.

Half of the cells are full with crab. Unused stuff, stuff from people they left or old dusty stuff. It’s like a big big present or surprise in every room. Combined with the question for what I can use this for is this a big creative playground -obviously a playground for big people. There are the craziest pieces of clothes I have seen, slides, desks, chairs, cupboards, beds, bikes, books, plates, cubs...there is a boat in an old house there are some fridges around, there are about 10 broken cars, there is a broken windmill to pump water from the ground, there are ping-pong tables and a broken billiard, there is a gymnastic or a theatre hall and a library... oh I can’t stop there is so much stuff even a air plane strip.

All this (and around 80 cows 200 sheep 20 pigs and 20 chicken) is controlled by only one guy Mark and his wife Melinda (but she is half the week off the island to sell stuff in their shop). Mark has also a reiki room to give the people a (kind of energy) massage and he wrote a book about his view of life, about mother earth calls “Eve’s secret” (by Mark Cunningham).

I never read this book but I am pretty sure that he wrote a lot about love and forgiveness and freedom. Haha maybe it’s a kind of freedom everybody have to learn to be naked. Naked, to be proud about the own body. Be and get to your own middle is a kind of “get rid of everything”. Get rid of all bullshit you carried for others, get rid of thinks you don’t like, and forgive everybody for bad things what happened. Be naked. The last things you get rid of while being naked are the bright pieces on your skin where normally the shorts or the bras are :-).