Oh woooow

Oh woooow

The last blog entry was long long time ago. where to start and where to end?

First of all I should talk about the incredible wonderful festivals on french island. Its hard to describe if you weren't there. Some of you best awesome guys I met there will read this now. You just have to know, I really love u and I really enjoyed the time with you.

A festival in Australia isn't the same as a festival in Germany. The first festival on french island was the new years eve festival. The music started at 4pm and ended at 4pm. 24H music on two stages. And thousands of nice people, they just want to share love and hugs and kisses. This is the paradise for me in this state of life, at this time, I really learned whats the only thing people need. Love hugs and kisses. No sex no erotic, just LOVE. Is it so unused for all other people I met before? Most of you guys will say, 'hey love and acceptation is what I already know' you have no idea! Be your self and get loved for this. Get a hug for this get a compliment like “your aura is sooo nice, I am so happy to meet you in this world (/in this life or even in this awesome place)”. And you get it as a compliment u only could believe in you just feel that's the truth. And how good is this? To know that oneself is nice and to learn how to love oneself is one thing but to hear this from so many unknown persons is like after to get to this point “i love myself” get goodies and goodies more and more, ha I feel like a loved dog :P

But anyway, want to talk about the festival. We build everything up weeks before. Organizations and constructions plans and a lot of work but at least was it nothing compared with what we get. Me and Bob built a bridge construction, sean an lee built the stage. And several other guys tents tracks bars....at the end everything was prepared for the festival. Ha, a festival without toilet. “Just in the bush”. Why isn't there a festival like this in Germany? If it's to hot, just go under a tree jump in the see or in the lake. No in Germany, not possible, “what if someone jumps or fell off the tree while be drunk, or fell in the water or, or, or. Just trust the people and let them think and let them learn.

I am writing this here while sitting in my van ('s name is charlie). Charlie was sick and so we have to spent 3 days in Port Augusta to repair him. Dam expensive cars, but this is an other story i'll tell u later.

The first festival was quite short, it come fast and ended fast. For this festival there were two german friends to celebrate the new year with me together. Ha those (guy and girl) I had to show first how to get rid of worries. To easy to say but more easy to live. Like I wrote, the last things u get rid of yourself are the tan lines. Yes it's still unused for me to be naked while all other are starring, even the guys. But that's the nature and we are not use to the nature? Yes, this is probably true :(. Anyway after a while they get used to it and stopped starring. I just say “yes look as my dick as much as you can and get use to it. Because this is the only way to get this conditions back to normal. And believe me, naked people are happier one. Ha, at the end of our farmwork time me and 4 other female wwoofers were naked at the beach. It was hard for some to get to this point but at the end they can be soooo glad now, and they are. Its a kind of strength inner strength to be how you are. But for this we will love you. Love u girls had such a awesome time at french island with you, I will never forget. Like I wrote in the guestbook before I left McLeod Farm. “It feels I came with nothing and left with everything. There I soo much love and I just thought I only can be happy with my last love, ha, last love, new love, love just love I will love u always and forever all of you girls, ha that's fucking awesome. Where was I – ah ya the festival the love, me the girls, no lets call them ladies or women, no more girls, let's grow up and be a child, as I maybe always will be.

But yeah let's go on with the festival. The new years eve festival was over at the 1. January and at the 3. January started fest la frog. Or better the bigger preparation. The festival over new year was 'just a festival' but this one war a working, building, creative, come together, sharing festival. You can work to get 'frogs' or buy one 'frog' for 5 $. And with one frog you get breakfast 2 frogs dinner or lunch one frog one cider or beer. Yes it's expensive to drink alcohol in Australia but yeay, it's not that common here anyway. If your are just yourself it's more what everyone likes. Even more accepted than alcohol are drugs in Australia, if your read this and you are from Germany, you will say, ouh drugs, all are bad. But yes, if you say this, then you have actually no idea how bad alcohol is. But this is another story. Back to the festival, there were workshops every day where people talk about alternative forms how to live together and how to share resources. Why does everyone in Germany has a car, why does everyone has tools in their workshop, so much stuff and if you have something, you bought everyone will borrow it and after a wile its broken and you have to buy it again. Just buy everything together, plan together live together not separately.

There was a place called Healing Space where you can just relax under trees give and get massages for free. There was a secret fire which was burning all the time, the first fire started on the fire ceremony by aboriginal peoples. The other fires have been lit with fire from these and we had a fire circle. This is a place where people can show what they can do with their fire twirling or sticks or or every show with fire. This place was next to the drumming space where drummers played African beats around the fire. There was a love shake, if u are in the love shake you have to share love with kisses or hugs without any kind of expectations. Just do it just live, just love.

Ouh I found love at exactly the point where I started to be happy independently. And that's what she sad. At this point came the most awesomest beautiful woman in my life. Kiana, a lady from Australia. She's cute smart pretty....to much for these weak words. We both love just the way we are. Funny, hey we laughed almost 2 days till she had to go. And from this day when she left, I felt that something is missing and I felt unhappy. But what is this unhappiness if you always need another person to be happy. Then I sad, no you were happy before and maybe you will never see her so just be independent. Have you ever loved independently? What stupid new stuff is this in my life, but lets play this game. And I play it pretty good now. I have to learn, sometimes few times a day, but it runs. What if I will never see her from one day to the next? As she says, I will love her from a distance, but I will still love her. That's it, and to be independent I have to trust in god in the universe in me in what ever that I get what I need to be happy. It is here it is there all the time I only have to allow it. And if I need woman to be happy, god knows, he will help me. Ha and the answer after this meditation at the next day where two nice pretty interesting girls. Just came, just like hey you are nice, lets talk. And I just get with this the sign that I am on the right way. Independent love, ha the last time was it unconditional, its pretty similar. Its maybe the opposite maybe the same maybe the partner what ever its the new thing I am trying now. Since I recognize that god is a comic artist and has fun to make stupid funny things in the humans life, why to life then in strict rules everybody is living in without knowing why, ha how funny human are. Like ants. But yeay as you play another game as your friends, they will be maybe never your friends, they don't make or like changes maybe so goodbye though. Hello thousand new friends and what is better than friends they love u and show u?

Enough philosophy there will be plenty new post in my other plot if I find time to type them in to the computer. Its like I am learning faster than I can write all. But yeay I thing that's IN that's in love in life are u in a life now, then don't forget to love.

That's it my friends from the farm. I just wonna inform you that I have a campervan now. I bought it for 2000 bugs and spend now almost the same in reparation camping insurance and registration. Before I start my trip to Perth, I had some beautiful lovely days in Melbourne with new friends of the festival and my love Kiana. All is like a fairytale like I am in the wonderland. And she is my elf, I can't wait to see the waterfalls and ride with you and your horses trough the wild.

Ohhh Woooooww