Wherever we go...

 

Hello and welcome to my old blog :-) 

Glad you found your way somehow to this remote place.

That’s where I am right now. Some may seem that’s a place far away from home but it is not (at least physically). I started my journey probably in December last year when I had the feeling of something growing inside…some feeling of ‘stuck’ some bigger need of change maybe.

After many years I guess of 'just living' and not really feeling that something is missing, it luckily  became very clear when I looked back to some time. Some time many many years ago actually. The time I started my last journey back in Australia, the time you can read below. Maybe this blog is a blog about changes, about chances or choices, who knows if I always need to step aside out of the actual pattern of life to get to the point I seek. Maybe it’s that what defines my life as it’s purpose or maybe it’s just a time out of the ‘real life’ how many people call it (haha which may be an illusion all together).

December last year after little changes in the previous years (breakups, changes in work, moving flat…) it felt like no matter what I try nothing really helps the state I’m in. The state I can’t even name yet. A state of stuck of ‘where are all the cool things’ a maybe just boring state.

The paradox is my life’s not boring at all :) , I do have many friends in the place I live. My week is full of so many fun things, dancing, singing, gym, watching shows with friends, discussions and cooking seasons with flatmates…just to name some things.

Crazy I guess that’s the life people want to live or people tell that’s how you live a good life …idk

So how the hank that’s not what made me happy in the end. It all left me sit with some kind of ‘that’s it’ …’that’s all there is’….can’t be… feeling.

And don’t get me wrong, it’s not the ‘more’ I’m seeking, during lockdown I luckily learned that less things to do/have is sometime more to win. I’m very thankfull for this experience!

Back so December :P haha. All I didn’t change during all those years has been my job. Well there have been some changes within my job but in the end of the day I was more stressed than finding it fulfilling (I guess that’s a good indicator that something’s odd). Hard to say what it has been….was working in a nice team (did laugh a lot) had good relationship with my boss and still I had this ‘and now’ feeling. Can’t even tell from where it comes.

So in new year’s eve and some days later I was thinking a lot and decided to change the last thing I didn’t try to change yet…which was my job.

My thoughts went from…’I’ll quit my job as soon as I find another one’ over ‘I’ll quit my job and then try to find another one’ (in case I don’t find another job straight away I said I’ll take a break and go travelling)…then I thought but what if I find a job straight away, then I can’t go traveling :)

That was the time when I figured out…I have to quit my job and go traveling :D

Do you know this situation if you can’t decide between two meals u have to choose…u throw a coin which decides for the 2. Meal but then u said….no I take the first one :D (u actually knew it already but u didn’t know u know) that has been the case.

It was also the time where I again was so sure about what I really need. It’s like a voice I didn’t listen to for many years when I try to live life as I think it’s the way to.

 

So I decided in December/January to quit my job and travel around à Destination Bhutan/Nepal maybe some further Asian countries. The plan was to go on land with hitching a lift or trains and busses through all the countries meeting all this beautiful cultures. But yea plans where different for everyone back in January. Sadly Bhutan and Nepal had closed borders all the time I checked.

So many things to learn and change I thought by the time I finish the last big project I was mainly involved (by June) maybe things change and countries will open up again…. Yeahh :D I tought…

In the end even though many strings pull to those countries (I now add Taiwan and Philippines to the list) I decided to travel with a camper van and stay within ‘driving home within a few days if necessary’-reach, named Europe.

I bought a camper by the end of June …went through fixing and administration process to get it registered as a ‘historical vehicle’ (which has many advantages in Germany and is possible with vehicles older than 30 years), changed gearbox and got new TÜV by the end of July and drove it all the way to my parents place to repair, fix and add many many little and big things to get the inside into shape. There is a workshop and many tools and a car port at my parents place which is very convenient to ‘do’ things at the car…Plus it was nice to not think about lunch/dinner while I was working, and my parents even could help with smaller or bigger tasks :)

I thought I can finish all jobs within 1 or 2 month…but even I cut out all not entirely necessary jobs of my list e.g. pulling all windows out and reseal it, repaint everything inside/outside…it took me 3 month to do everything which I decided is necessary. A huuuuge part of the time I was reading how to install and fix things, researching if the information is really correct (I found so much bullsh*t in those online forums) browsing different discussions, watching youtube, contacting sellers and producers and ordering things.

The car (named Jack) has now new bath floor, new bath wall, built in dry toilet, fixed the ‘sink’, new tap and a little decoration…almost complete new electrical wiring with 480W solar, 500Ah LiFePo4 Akku, charge control for power from grid, light machine or solar, inverter 3000W for 230V, many power plugs and USB charging points, new built in bed (140 before 120), fixed leakage at 3 points, fixed gas cooker, installation of LPG tanks for LPG usage for fridge, heater, warm water and cooking (now I can fill up LPG (Gas) at every patrol station without getting a new bottle each other country I’m traveling to), new curtains, new GPS Android radio with 4 speakers, made passenger chair to be able to turn, insulated the floor for winter camping, fixed all hinges and doors to the cupboards, changed and installed new lightning, bought a scooter to but it on the back of the van to be more mobile, sealed and finally decorated Jacky so I can pack and move in…    

As an example I attached some pictures of the bathroom fixing process 

 Before state:

 

Process.....

After finish state:

 

 To be continued ……

 

Oh woooow

Oh woooow

The last blog entry was long long time ago. where to start and where to end?

First of all I should talk about the incredible wonderful festivals on french island. Its hard to describe if you weren't there. Some of you best awesome guys I met there will read this now. You just have to know, I really love u and I really enjoyed the time with you.

A festival in Australia isn't the same as a festival in Germany. The first festival on french island was the new years eve festival. The music started at 4pm and ended at 4pm. 24H music on two stages. And thousands of nice people, they just want to share love and hugs and kisses. This is the paradise for me in this state of life, at this time, I really learned whats the only thing people need. Love hugs and kisses. No sex no erotic, just LOVE. Is it so unused for all other people I met before? Most of you guys will say, 'hey love and acceptation is what I already know' you have no idea! Be your self and get loved for this. Get a hug for this get a compliment like “your aura is sooo nice, I am so happy to meet you in this world (/in this life or even in this awesome place)”. And you get it as a compliment u only could believe in you just feel that's the truth. And how good is this? To know that oneself is nice and to learn how to love oneself is one thing but to hear this from so many unknown persons is like after to get to this point “i love myself” get goodies and goodies more and more, ha I feel like a loved dog :P

But anyway, want to talk about the festival. We build everything up weeks before. Organizations and constructions plans and a lot of work but at least was it nothing compared with what we get. Me and Bob built a bridge construction, sean an lee built the stage. And several other guys tents tracks bars....at the end everything was prepared for the festival. Ha, a festival without toilet. “Just in the bush”. Why isn't there a festival like this in Germany? If it's to hot, just go under a tree jump in the see or in the lake. No in Germany, not possible, “what if someone jumps or fell off the tree while be drunk, or fell in the water or, or, or. Just trust the people and let them think and let them learn.

I am writing this here while sitting in my van ('s name is charlie). Charlie was sick and so we have to spent 3 days in Port Augusta to repair him. Dam expensive cars, but this is an other story i'll tell u later.

The first festival was quite short, it come fast and ended fast. For this festival there were two german friends to celebrate the new year with me together. Ha those (guy and girl) I had to show first how to get rid of worries. To easy to say but more easy to live. Like I wrote, the last things u get rid of yourself are the tan lines. Yes it's still unused for me to be naked while all other are starring, even the guys. But that's the nature and we are not use to the nature? Yes, this is probably true :(. Anyway after a while they get used to it and stopped starring. I just say “yes look as my dick as much as you can and get use to it. Because this is the only way to get this conditions back to normal. And believe me, naked people are happier one. Ha, at the end of our farmwork time me and 4 other female wwoofers were naked at the beach. It was hard for some to get to this point but at the end they can be soooo glad now, and they are. Its a kind of strength inner strength to be how you are. But for this we will love you. Love u girls had such a awesome time at french island with you, I will never forget. Like I wrote in the guestbook before I left McLeod Farm. “It feels I came with nothing and left with everything. There I soo much love and I just thought I only can be happy with my last love, ha, last love, new love, love just love I will love u always and forever all of you girls, ha that's fucking awesome. Where was I – ah ya the festival the love, me the girls, no lets call them ladies or women, no more girls, let's grow up and be a child, as I maybe always will be.

But yeah let's go on with the festival. The new years eve festival was over at the 1. January and at the 3. January started fest la frog. Or better the bigger preparation. The festival over new year was 'just a festival' but this one war a working, building, creative, come together, sharing festival. You can work to get 'frogs' or buy one 'frog' for 5 $. And with one frog you get breakfast 2 frogs dinner or lunch one frog one cider or beer. Yes it's expensive to drink alcohol in Australia but yeay, it's not that common here anyway. If your are just yourself it's more what everyone likes. Even more accepted than alcohol are drugs in Australia, if your read this and you are from Germany, you will say, ouh drugs, all are bad. But yes, if you say this, then you have actually no idea how bad alcohol is. But this is another story. Back to the festival, there were workshops every day where people talk about alternative forms how to live together and how to share resources. Why does everyone in Germany has a car, why does everyone has tools in their workshop, so much stuff and if you have something, you bought everyone will borrow it and after a wile its broken and you have to buy it again. Just buy everything together, plan together live together not separately.

There was a place called Healing Space where you can just relax under trees give and get massages for free. There was a secret fire which was burning all the time, the first fire started on the fire ceremony by aboriginal peoples. The other fires have been lit with fire from these and we had a fire circle. This is a place where people can show what they can do with their fire twirling or sticks or or every show with fire. This place was next to the drumming space where drummers played African beats around the fire. There was a love shake, if u are in the love shake you have to share love with kisses or hugs without any kind of expectations. Just do it just live, just love.

Ouh I found love at exactly the point where I started to be happy independently. And that's what she sad. At this point came the most awesomest beautiful woman in my life. Kiana, a lady from Australia. She's cute smart pretty....to much for these weak words. We both love just the way we are. Funny, hey we laughed almost 2 days till she had to go. And from this day when she left, I felt that something is missing and I felt unhappy. But what is this unhappiness if you always need another person to be happy. Then I sad, no you were happy before and maybe you will never see her so just be independent. Have you ever loved independently? What stupid new stuff is this in my life, but lets play this game. And I play it pretty good now. I have to learn, sometimes few times a day, but it runs. What if I will never see her from one day to the next? As she says, I will love her from a distance, but I will still love her. That's it, and to be independent I have to trust in god in the universe in me in what ever that I get what I need to be happy. It is here it is there all the time I only have to allow it. And if I need woman to be happy, god knows, he will help me. Ha and the answer after this meditation at the next day where two nice pretty interesting girls. Just came, just like hey you are nice, lets talk. And I just get with this the sign that I am on the right way. Independent love, ha the last time was it unconditional, its pretty similar. Its maybe the opposite maybe the same maybe the partner what ever its the new thing I am trying now. Since I recognize that god is a comic artist and has fun to make stupid funny things in the humans life, why to life then in strict rules everybody is living in without knowing why, ha how funny human are. Like ants. But yeay as you play another game as your friends, they will be maybe never your friends, they don't make or like changes maybe so goodbye though. Hello thousand new friends and what is better than friends they love u and show u?

Enough philosophy there will be plenty new post in my other plot if I find time to type them in to the computer. Its like I am learning faster than I can write all. But yeay I thing that's IN that's in love in life are u in a life now, then don't forget to love.

That's it my friends from the farm. I just wonna inform you that I have a campervan now. I bought it for 2000 bugs and spend now almost the same in reparation camping insurance and registration. Before I start my trip to Perth, I had some beautiful lovely days in Melbourne with new friends of the festival and my love Kiana. All is like a fairytale like I am in the wonderland. And she is my elf, I can't wait to see the waterfalls and ride with you and your horses trough the wild.

Ohhh Woooooww               

BIG Picture Appendix

     

lucy in the sky with diamonds

clink clink tina clink

the first view to the sea, look at my bright shoes :)

 a nice dude standing all the time in this cold pond

i found this awesome couch bar in Fitzroy, Melbourne

 This is the bar downstairs

strong soldiers

 look at my bright shoes    

                                  

  ok, gone, dont jump over a river expecting solid ground at the other side

  this is my cell where i am living

 nice fireguys making some musik

 another sunset picture

 look at Amys watch, Happy-time all the time

 clouds and sun, amazing 

 beach beach

 another sunset picture

     what do you thing ?

 yeah ???

 YEAAHH !!!

 every day working hands....

 the instant picture, instant EVERYTHING

 one night without moskitos...thats a dream

not another sunset picture, the "burning clouds"

 but also the moon is nice here 

 fit ? FIT !

 the roof, the roof, the roof is on fire

 BUT, its still ALL ABOUT LOVE

 yeeiii little ducklings

 and the last one

 piggi pig pig, sooo cute

 at Amys, the "farm chicks"

 sit down and relaxe :)

 come together...right now

 mon bonne creation "gluehwein on ice" ... NICE !!!

French Island and Melbourne: Happy Christmas Eve and for sure New Years Eve

French Island and Melbourne third:

Hi guys how are u doing :)

So this is my last Post till Christmas and maybe till New Years Eve. Since the last post there were lots of things happen at the farm. Actually while I first tried to upload my last blog post there was a fire at the building next to me. It was like a very crazy thing. My mother tried to reach me at phone but there were problems in the line so, I went out to talk to my mother 3 times ( I was in Marks house and I don't want to wake him up). And every time I cant see anything abnormal or strange with the building next to Marks house. And then I went back in and 10 minutes later I heard this baaanngs. Like somebody is shooting. I thought it were animals first, but then it became louder and louder. And when I looked out, the whole building on fire. I woke everybody up to be sure if the fire catches on the other buildings that nobody is in. You can actually do in this moment: nothing. We guys were standing around (haha I sat on the roof next to the building on fire) armed with fire extinguisher till the firemen were coming. But yes they cant do anything else then holding the hose on the flames but the building is fucked now. The whole roof was asbestos but still in flames till nothing else then the wals and a lot of smoke lefts. In the building was luckily old stuff from wwoofers and the food of the chickens. They are thinking that it's an electrical defect causes the fire but we will never know.

Next things were close to Christmas Sarah Bob Brett and Beka were leaving and I was the last days alone with Amy on the farm. The fireguys and other festival organisators came around and we had a couple of nice days with new fire shows, good drinks and of cause heaps of stuff to talk about. I finished with Bob the bridge for the festival till we run out of wood, repaired the tractor, learned how to weld and we get little babies.

There are two little piggy piglets, ooh such a cute, 7 little ducky ducklings. But how bad is the way of life. The little ducklings are all gone now. One died we think because of weakness, 5 just disappeared (we think a maybe the pigs or a cat had eaten them) and the last one get refused by the mother. We tried to rescue the last one but we think it was to cold in the first days without the mother. Really sad, but thats the way of life.

Another way of live is to kill the animals. On one day, there was a man arriving to kill two cows and two bigs. And the girls said they dont want to see how the animals get killed. And I thought, no, its maybe hard to see passing a live. But I thought I eat almost every day meet without thinking about the farmer who has to give maybe his favourite animal away. And at this morning the biggest male pick came to me and Amy to watch us having our breakfast. And Mark came around and sad to the pig, "you will die later" and with this sentence I get cold and I thought this pig needs my protection and I can prevent the killing of this animal. But then I thought, if its not this, then its an other pig. Mark needs the money and the food to feet us, to feet me. And then I thought its hard to kill something but if I eat animals almost every day, I have to be strong enough to watch them passing away. So I watched the shooting of the pigs and the processing of the pigs and cows. And yes its smelling strong and yes its weird. But till the head and the innards are away, then its just a piece of meet and bones. 

After a few more excited days of the farm and a couple of naked sun baths Christmas gets closer. Ah I forgot, we did secret santa or KK ("Wichteln" in german). I had to make a present for Josefin the Swedish girl. And I though a lot about the present. You cant buy anything on the island, so it was a very creative thing. I knew that she got engaged couple of days before and I thought about a plaque of wood and with her and her girlfriends name soldered. But I had also some god conversations about energy and love with her and I know what she loves the company of a special tree. So I thought about doing something in this direction for her but I actually dont know what to do. In my free time I made some experiments with bones and wood to build a flute. And then I got the idea to make her a little flute as a neckless. I tried hard and had a couple of ideas to build one but I never get a tone out of the little whistles. I had actually a dream a night before the last day where I can build something. And I tried this idea of my dream and one can hear tone a little. Ok and then I went out to get some wood of her favourite tree, the twisted tree. This is actually an amazing tree. Its growing around its centre. It looks like a drill and also the branches are growing around this centre. But the tree fell over before I came to the farm she sad (she was at the farm before in winter). The tree is still growing horizontal and also twisting. I found a root in a perfect size and I could feel the energy of the tree in this root, you cant imagine, its amazing!!! And actually the bark of the root is twisted too. So I made a flute out of this root with 3 holes and made a neckless out of this flute. I tried to get a tone out of this flute but its hard. And then I get it. I should never be a normal flute. We were talking that much about energy and spirits that I couldn't see it, but I saw, its a spirit flute to talk to the spirits.

On this time I was so sure thats exactly what it should be. I get so happy then.

We had a really nice night all together but I know I have to finish the flute in the night. I dont know what to do, but I thought to do some meditation over the flute. I know this sounds crazy and some of you will know or even called me crazy before but I just had this feeling inside of me just...let it be

And thats what happened I had this crazy, like a drug trip, time while meditation and I know exactly what to do. If somebody ever wants to know more, just ask but I dont want to bore my friends they never get into this. So I put two spells on the flute, one for "change" I thought about, if you really want to change something in your life its the most important thing to actually know that there is a problem and the next big step is to it make this decision to change something. And then everything will happen to change yourself but to know that one need help and to know that help is always around, is not easy. And this is my first present for her. A call to the spirits, asking for help.

The next thing is a protecting thing. Its a simple thing but important. And I didn't know but then I cant say whats the third spell I have to put on the flute. So I let it free this slot and the third present for her is to teach her how to do this spells and she has to descide whats the last spell. After this meditation, this root this flute feels soooo strong so babaaam fuck I couldn't let it in my room so I let it out over night. The next day was the day when everybody gets their presents. So the big day. And the presents were all fucking awesome. Haha Josefin had Amy and made her a neckless, too, Amy get Becka and made her a beautiful pocket Beka gets Sarah and made her a great book with things from the farm and Sarah painted a fucking beautiful postcard of the farm for me. So cute, so good. And Josefin just were happy like hell. I know that she would feel this fucking strong energy after the meditation and she did. She hold it in her hand and opened her mouth couldn't day anything. Just "whooow oh my good". And soo crazy. A week before Josefin talked to Beka about protection and that she has this feeling to protect herself. And also she found a book about spells and she found it really exciting and would lern it. So crazy this just had to get happened. And I never did something with spells I just had this feeling to do it and it was like I never did something else. I really dont know what it is but its like we all know what we need and thats what it is and ..... ok ok i'll get too philosophical again and at this point I want you to know, that I started an other blog to talk about this feeling stuff this energy and philosophical developing what I am thinking about. Just ask me about the adress, this is something I'll write in german.

Christmas Christmas Christmas. Whats Christmas without snow, without jumpers and with a lot of sunscreen and too hot days. I can tell you, its not the same. I miss the snow I miss the ice-skating on the lake of constance I miss the bowled wine, the "plaetzchen" and my family. Big kisses at this point back home!

I get off the Island to celebrate a pre Christmas party at Amys. The party was yesterday at the 23. but we went off the Island at the 21. So I had another amazing days here with Amy and her friends...woooww. At the 21. I went with a friend called Joel to a Punk fest in a great pub. Afterwards Amys friend Tim took me up with his car to join another party, called a duf. This is a illegal psytronic festival normally in the bush. But this one was at a empty great place next to a river. Woww. This party was fucking awesome. I dont know when the party started, but we get there at 1am and stayed there the fucking whole night and day, dancing. I never danced that long till we get home at 5pm. Going out at 7-8pm till 5 pm partying almost 24 hours. The plan was at the 22. to buy some ingredients for cake and "gluehwein". But yeah, thats it. Partyed to long. Amy only sad "welcome to our live". Ha this is a place where I could stay. Some people know that I am a night person. I'm saying things like "the important and interesting things happen in the night" and wooww :) such a lovely place with lovely people and dancing all time. If there is no more water, somebody will but water and share it with other. And then you are going to buy some food and you will share it...its like a big family and thats all for free. Music all the time and really good DJ's. Yeah and the next day after this two days there is the pre Christmas Party on Amys flat. It was only a quiet party with a lot of food and water pistols and ice. I made some "gluehwein" and "tiroler" nut cake and served it later when it gets colder. And there it is, with a warm cup of "gluehwein" the Christmas feeling :). Everybody enjoyed the wine and it was the best "gluehwein" I ever had. I found the recipe at the internet and its really tasty. To bad I thought thats soo hot. To hot for an hot drink, and today I had the idea. Do you remember, if you read my blog, in Korea there is everything in hot AND cold. So I put in the last cup I found this morning ICE. And fucking hell, this is awesome. I never was so proud. This is the idea of the last few days of this awesome year :D "gluewein" on ice. Its really good, I couldn't believe. But yes, watch the picture...

So my friends have a good time and enjoy your time with your family, because I cant this year and keep on reading, love u all :-*    xoxo

French Island: numero duo

French Island second:

Little update till the last post. We are now 4 wwoofers. The new one is Sarah and yes she is also from the UK. She lived in Melbourne for some month and wants to get the second holiday visa as well. She arrived nearly a week before and does really enjoy everything here. Well she needed some days to get away from the city life feeling but now she is really happy to be here. She had a date this weekend in the city but she didn’t want to go because she already loves this place :-) here. But she’s back on Sunday, oh it’s today. She will be back in some hours. The boat (they call a normal boat a ferry) goes only 3 times a day. There is a (car-)ferry also but you have to book these and there is only space for two cars, so this is nothing compared with the ferries in Constance. Yesterday Josephine a girl from Sweden arrived. So till today we are 5 wwoofers 4 girls and me. Yes I am a lucky man (with fire in my hands). And I don’t have to say that’s all about love on this place, I already did.

There are some new things I did the last days. I learned how to drive the tractor and use the different tools. I build and repaired the fence around the vegetables garden, repaired a broken bridge for the festival...and so one. Once a guy came with his truck to get some cows and castrate the new born. For this we had to bring them all together and to get sure to get all we have to walk to and move every cow on the area. This took half a day only to get these around 80 cows. But it was a lot of fun.

After the work I can do whatever I want. One of my favourites is to climb trees. There a thousands of trees around and they are quite high. Sometimes I met koalas (but it’s better not to climb with them. Oh they are friendly but if they are around and want to climb on one, then you get a problem. They have long and sharp claws like a buzzard or an eagle). I’ve also seen some parrots sitting only the branch next to me while chatting with each other. Or yes for shore lots of different kinds of other birds. They all like to stop on the top of the trees where I am sitting :-) . It’s also a lot of fun to climb the different roofs. Now I can get on the top of every roof without a ladder. And there are some roofs they are pretty good to watch the sunsets. Ohh did I ever talk about the pretty sunsets before? You can’t imagine. It’s sooo beautiful awesome nice and whatever fucking good. Take the best sunset you had before and imagine you can have this or a better one here every day. I stopped myself taking pictures of these because my camera will get full only with sunset pictures. In the last two weeks there were a partial solar eclipse and a lunar eclipse. Amy flew to Cairns for the Eclipse Festival to see the eclipse. This was a festival over a week with awesome music and couple of stages with 24 hours live music. Oh at this point I can tell you about the festival on this island I wrote before. To be right; there will be two. One festival for new years eve (this is a two or three day festival with two stages and 24 hours life music run only on solar power and battery) and the other one is a bigger festival called “fest la frog” you can have a look here. For shore we’ll sell self grown food, juice, beer and stuff like this. It’s very interesting to help to organize stuff for the festival (repairing the bridge, building the stage, fencing up the area and we do this stuff with things we have. For the stage we use wood we get out of the forest and to fell the trees and cut them into pieces. It’s funny to see how exact you can build everything with only a few tools. But you have to know. The festival will be a big alternative place with a lot of workshops, mud baths, fireplaces and fire shows. The fire show people came here 3 times now. They also help to keep everything running and are such awesome persons. You can talk to them the whole night about stars, ghosts and reincarnation or other mystery and spiritual stuff. This is such a good place here to do this. Everybody is talking about unconditional love (we would translate this with “love without borders”) hugging and being together. It’s so normal to lay arm in arm with everyone you want. I already know things like this with my friends in Constance but it’s such a good feeling to see that’s all love is about. The first day Sarah arrived and we talked to her about this “hugging and touching each other” thing she did a strange face and looked scared. But we sad you will see, it’s not an erotic thing it’s less erotic than it sounds it’s all about love. And now only after a week, she also enjoys pass a way of another person while touching those. Sounds very wired to write this and it is, maybe while you read, maybe one is only possible to understand or to enjoy while living this. But I’m sure some out of you will understand. So don’t be scared when I am back in Germany (ouh this is a funny picture in my head now :-) )and I will always touch and hug you. That’s the way of love. Mark believes in unconditional love. And what he is thinking about this love is exactly the German translation. Love without borders. And you CAN love without borders. EVERYONE. This is some big lesson I had so learn and I still learn. Did you ever try to love everyone and not only one person? I know it’s something that doesn’t fit into the head... But it does. And it’s good. It’s unconditional.

Oh I am talking to much Philosophy stuff and to little stuff about my journey and this kind of stuff. Maybe I have to write a separate Philosophy and Spiritual Blog - to talk about these experiences.

Half of the cells are full with crab. Unused stuff, stuff from people they left or old dusty stuff. It’s like a big big present or surprise in every room. Combined with the question for what I can use this for is this a big creative playground -obviously a playground for big people. There are the craziest pieces of clothes I have seen, slides, desks, chairs, cupboards, beds, bikes, books, plates, cubs...there is a boat in an old house there are some fridges around, there are about 10 broken cars, there is a broken windmill to pump water from the ground, there are ping-pong tables and a broken billiard, there is a gymnastic or a theatre hall and a library... oh I can’t stop there is so much stuff even a air plane strip.

All this (and around 80 cows 200 sheep 20 pigs and 20 chicken) is controlled by only one guy Mark and his wife Melinda (but she is half the week off the island to sell stuff in their shop). Mark has also a reiki room to give the people a (kind of energy) massage and he wrote a book about his view of life, about mother earth calls “Eve’s secret” (by Mark Cunningham).

I never read this book but I am pretty sure that he wrote a lot about love and forgiveness and freedom. Haha maybe it’s a kind of freedom everybody have to learn to be naked. Naked, to be proud about the own body. Be and get to your own middle is a kind of “get rid of everything”. Get rid of all bullshit you carried for others, get rid of thinks you don’t like, and forgive everybody for bad things what happened. Be naked. The last things you get rid of while being naked are the bright pieces on your skin where normally the shorts or the bras are :-). 

French Island: numero uno

French Island first:

Where do I have to start?

Maybe on this point… 

Anything you should know about the Island: “Some people call it the outback island or the other island. What you can find here is the world biggest koala population (about 1700 koalas) over 250 different species of birds and about 400 different orchids. This is only an example about the number of different animals, trees and species around this place and should tell you a story about the wildlife on French Island or the outback island.” On French Island, you can’t find a McDonald or kind like this. There is only one shop on this island and its open when it’s open (only a “Tante Emma Laden” like we call a little small shop in Germany).  3/4 of the Island is a National Park what’s obviously the reason for the big number of species. On this island you can’t find any electricity or internet connection or a water pipe to the main land. Everything you need to life has to come from the island. So we have here a water pump to get water from the ground (only for watering the plants and showering because of the sea around, the ground water is really salty) a solar panel to get energy for the water pump and electricity and a lot of batteries and tanks to store these. The answer about the question: which water we are supposed to drink is: rainwater. Filtered rainwater and its really tasty!

At this point maybe some people are asking themselves why he is on this island and why he will stay such a long time at this place? The answer is quite easy, 'cause: I like! My flat member Caroline and her sister Steffi have been to this island couple of month ago and both of them were talking about the interesting farmer and his view of life. Caroline said: “That’s a guy you have to meet. He is a very spiritual person and has in many of these points the same opinion as you Jan and he believe in similar stuff”. That’s the point where I decided to come to this island when I am in Australia. So after Melbourne I thought I will stay here for one or two weeks and that’s it. I planned to make the great ocean road afterwards and go to Adelaide. But it comes like it has to come and I am still here.

I think I will write lots about this island this place and the spirit but today I will tell you something about a standard day when I am working here.

First of all the farm is an old prison. My room is a cell and there’s the beginning of the day. Did you ever wake up in a cell of a prison but you’re free? That’s the feeling here around. That’s the second thought when you wake up after the first: “dam I am in a prison”. Free to open this cell door, free to eat and drink, free to meet all the people here around. That’s a present, that’s wonderful, only little people recognize this but I do. I am free. Enough of this bullshit philosophy, I get my breakfast in a big room. There is place for almost 50 people or more but at this time we are only 6 persons. Bob, the mechanist and man who knows, does and did everything, a UK guy around 60 smart and a really good egg. Marc, the guy who runs the farm and Melinda his friend or partner or ex-wife, however. And two other female wwoofers from the UK. Amy is a cute 24yr girl who traveled almost her whole life. The last 4 years she lived on a crew ship and saw a lot of interesting things and she is a very open-minded person who is willing to learn everything. I teach her juggling, playing the guitar, climbing and some German words. She was a “beauty queen” and worked in Melbourne to make the persons nails and give some massages (I have a German friend called Corinna K. she’s really similar in this point, maybe you will read this now). But if you would now see Amy, you can’t imagine that she was a beauty queen. Oh she’s pretty but now she looks more like a hippie but that’s not bad :). Beka is also from the UK. They didn’t know each other before they come here. She changed her life after coming here as well. When she said “Mum there is anything wrong with us when we stand up and feel sad. Fell like: I have to do this, I have to be pretty, I need this make up or is this jeans better or that? And all these people here are so happy every day. There might something be very wrong in our life if they are all the time happy and we’re not.” So that’s Beka and yes, with this, she’s really right. To wake up and say “good morning how are you” and to get a “couldn’t be better” is the most normal thing. And that’s all about “all about love”. Having a breakfast in this conditions in the sun couldn’t be better. If you wake up and be happy to meet the happy people at breakfast is like a movie about golden eggs and milk out of lucky happy cows where everything is bright and healthy. Sounds very funny and yes it is, it is all about love. After breakfast (this is 8.30 o’clock) I have several work to do. For example: planting, weeding (unkrautjaeten in german), collecting sticks for the fire, shoveling shit and build a compost, watering, digging holes, clean the roofs (one of my favorites after shoveling shit, really to shovel shit makes you strong. And funny things are around in my head if I am doing this. I played a card game, Happy-Family (Quartett in german) in Italy some years ago and it was a joke, because this card game was about dog shit. Values like shit drop-high or weight or smell are available on this game, and the cow shit could be a very powerful joker shit drop-high 1,60m weight 10-20kg (who out of you can get rid of your pounds that fast??) and smell, aaawwsome, oh this is funny, talk about shit in a public plot yeah that's fun!! ). Back to the roots, one can train oneself every time to have fun. Fun to stand up, fun to meet every day the same people, fun to shovel shit. All this stuff I am supposed to do till 1pm. After that I will cook my or our lunch (eggs, eggs and eggs, you can’t imagine how creative I can be to combine eggs with…). After lunch is fun time, it’s happy time. Yes happy time is all the time but now I can do whatever I want. But this is something I will write later. I can watch a movie tonight and I don’t want to miss this lucky spectacle.

Miss u all, hugs and kisses back home and to all my friends where ever you are

Melbourne

Hi there.

First of all:
I’m writing now in English because of all the people I’ve met here and in Seoul to follow my trip as well. So, where do I have to start? My last post is now I think 3 weeks ago and a lot of my friends are saying something like "please update your blog, or go on". I tried a few times but it’s more difficult than you can imagine. There is one Laptop here with an internet connection but you have to pay per Mb and so the farmer announced us to use it only if we have to. That’s also the reason why these posts come without pictures. I’ll update this when I’m able to up- and download more than a few Mb.

Melbourne:
So what about Melbourne? I arrived here after my stay in Seoul and the first thing I recognized was its quite cold isn’t it? So I need all my jumpers I’ve taken with (ok it’s just one :) ). I took the Skybus from the airport for 17$ or so. Yes its expensive that’s what I thought. In the city I remembered that some friends told me to use the free bus or the tram what I did. So I take the bus and drove in 1.30h around the city and learned something about the famous buildings, because the lady uses the microphone to speak to the people. I jumped off at the southest point to get to the beach. Yes, the first thing I want to see was the sea. So I decided to walk to the sea. It looks like a pretty long way but it takes me only one and a half hour. On my way to the see I met a girl who lives in Melbourne and I ask her for some good places to go. So she underlined the places of her interests in my map. She also offered me some places to go where I could find some hostels near the beach. The place called St. Kilda. So next plan: go to St. Kilda and find some good hostels. I walked around the entire road and met some very polite people who helped me out to find the way to St. Kilda and walked some minutes with me and I had some pretty good conversations with people I’ve never seen before. So once arrived in St. Kilda there are no Hostels. I needed another hour to find one called “backpackers home” and I have to pay 30$ per night in a 4 person room. That’s fucking much money. But I was soooo tired and I only want to sleep. Remember I have to wake up in Seoul at 7 o’clock AM (to pack everything eat and drive to the airport and so on) then (2 hours more) arriving in Melbourne without sleep in the plain and the plane arrived M. On 7 AM also. Walked around the whole day, you can imagine how tired I was. But the people, who know me, also know that’s the night what is always interested for me. So I went with a French guy called Antoine and two other German guys (girl and boy) to find a location to go out. So the German guys want to meet some friends but we missed them 3 times. So we met each other on Fed. Square to find a pub. But all Pubs aren’t in the inner city. So we only find a club with some security in front of and the people in the inside (we could look through the windows) are pretty well dressed. Doesn’t matter we talked with the sec. Guys a couple of minutes to let us in. And yes! We were UNDERDRESSED. One sec. Guy told me “next time better shoes”. But the shoes are the best things I weared. Haha funny thing. The people weared their best clothes. A wedding is nothing against. So we were surrounded by the well dressed Australian guys and drunk half a liter of beer for 10$. Fuck the Oktoberfest is nothing if you are here, but most of you guys will know this. So we (Antoine and me) drunk one or two of this fucking expensive things and, he also had a jetlag, went back to the hostel at one AM. After, I don’t know how long time I felled to bed almost dead. Several hours later (felt 5 min) the girl who cleans the room said to me “wake up you have to check out at 10”. Fuck, I asked her to get another night, she said yes but I have to stand up. Dam, because I talked to Antoine to leave this hostel and get to a better one in the city the next day, so, today. Doesn’t matter I only wanted to sleep, took another night and fell back to sleep till 4pm. Afterwards I walked around St. Kilda, went for a swim and got a Australian SIM card. This night was free barbecue at the hostel, so good to stay another night. But yes, never get a hungry “Jan the man” full. After two times I got something to eat, it was empty.  Next day I went to the library to get free internet, but only for one hour. Not enough to backup the next 1.5 GB of pictures I took after the last backup in Seoul. But I met another nice German girl she lives near a little city where the guys from the day before are from. Funny thing and she sat next to him on another computer. The world is so small. Both of them wanted to go away from Melbourne, because it’s too cold for them. He booked already a flight to Cairns but she want to do some wwoofing as well. I told her to come with me to French Island but at the end she decided to go with him to the north. Many people did so, I met later. The people here called M. A city with four seasons a day.
Ok back to the roads, I followed Antoine to the Greenhouse hostel. The night there was about 32$ but with breakfast. And I know I can eat a lot. And with only 2$ I can’t get a good breakfast which is enough, I decided. So at the end I stayed there for 3 nights. To save money I had a BIG breakfast and a BIG dinner. I met Antoine and almost 1000 other French persons. What the hell is going on? About 50% of the people are from Asia, 30% from France and all the other, some German some Italian some Uks. But I enjoyed being together with the French guy; they are really nice and funny too. And a big surprise; they are in my age or older. All the German girls (there are a lot of two German girls around 18 years old traveling together after the A level) or couples are pretty young. And Antoine has a good description for these persons: “they are thinking like this:” and pointed with his fingers in every direction and changes these. That’s I recognized now really good. And I know exactly what he means. People who think they know exactly what’s going on and what they want to do, but change their mind after a few days straight into the other direction. And that’s exactly I already learned and still watched at these girls. “Don’t know what to know or what to want”. So but this might be a phase in everyone life. And I met a French girl, pretty girl, she’s 25 now but still like this. And Antoine if you’ll read this, she didn’t come to French Island as you said. Also because it’s too cold for her (I can understand).
Yeah in the next days I spend lot of time to get to every place the first girl I met in M. Underlined in my Map. And if I don’t know anything about M. I never would get to these places. Thanks a lot unknown girl, if you can feel. For some places I took one of these public bikes. You’ll pay 3$ a day and 30minutes drives are for free. But 30 min is almost nothing. So I took one bike for a big tour around the outer-inner city. I wanted to use the bike for 1h30min to pay 7$ more. But after 3 not found return-stations I drove to the University (I already visited) and need a little bit too long. 3 minutes, 10$. Great big huge shit....haha but that’s life. After 90 minutes for two hours the bike costs 17$, ten more. The next 3 hours I went by foot. And Melbourne is fucking small. All “points of interests” you can do on one or two days. But yes, if you want to go to the great places, the very very pretty pubs I found for example or to find hidden art you need much more time. M. Is small if you’ll compare it with Seoul. In Seoul there are 21 Mio. People in whole Australia there are about, I don’t know, 20-40 Mio. ? So yes if you arrived from Seoul every city is fucking small.
At this point if some people didn’t realized it, here as well the persons are using: fucking, shit, pretty, huge, awesome and these words in almost every sentences. After 2 for free festivals near the river in M. And a great time with all the new friends I met, my inner voice want me to get to French Island. Caroline my flat member in Constance (Germany) told my about Mark a very interesting guy “who do stuff like me” she said and means a lot of spiritual things. Mark is the owner of a farm and I called him whether he has a place for me or not. So he sad yes and described the way to get to the ferry to French Island. He said there will be a pretty girl to put me up but I have to call if I am at the ferry point at the mainland. So I called (glad to be 10 minutes earlier at the train station because the train got 7 minutes earlier off) and he said “everything all right I’ll send you 2 pretty girls to put you up” and on the other side, on French Island, there are 3 pretty girls they wait for me...what a nice surprise :)
But that’s another story mate. I’ve now a computer here since, now :), and a can write posts and upload it later on Marks computer. So I hope I can update soon the rest and continue my story with a lot of good experiences I made on French Island. Otherwise it was enough to read for one day.

Kisses and hugs back to Germany, love u all....