Oh woooow
The last blog entry was long long time
ago. where to start and where to end?
First of all I should talk about the
incredible wonderful festivals on french island. Its hard to describe
if you weren't there. Some of you best awesome guys I met there will
read this now. You just have to know, I really love u and I really
enjoyed the time with you.
A festival in Australia isn't the same
as a festival in Germany. The first festival on french island was
the new years eve festival. The music started at 4pm and ended at
4pm. 24H music on two stages. And thousands of nice people, they just
want to share love and hugs and kisses. This is the paradise for me
in this state of life, at this time, I really learned whats the only
thing people need. Love hugs and kisses. No sex no erotic, just LOVE.
Is it so unused for all other people I met before? Most of you guys
will say, 'hey love and acceptation is what I already know' you have
no idea! Be your self and get loved for this. Get a hug for this get
a compliment like “your aura is sooo nice, I am so happy to meet
you in this world (/in this life or even in this awesome place)”.
And you get it as a compliment u only could believe in you just feel
that's the truth. And how good is this? To know that oneself is nice
and to learn how to love oneself is one thing but to hear this from
so many unknown persons is like after to get to this point “i love
myself” get goodies and goodies more and more, ha I feel like a
loved dog :P
But anyway, want to talk about the
festival. We build everything up weeks before. Organizations and
constructions plans and a lot of work but at least was it nothing
compared with what we get. Me and Bob built a bridge construction,
sean an lee built the stage. And several other guys tents tracks
bars....at the end everything was prepared for the festival. Ha, a
festival without toilet. “Just in the bush”. Why isn't there a
festival like this in Germany? If it's to hot, just go under a tree
jump in the see or in the lake. No in Germany, not possible, “what
if someone jumps or fell off the tree while be drunk, or fell in the
water or, or, or. Just trust the people and let them think and let
them learn.
I am writing this here while sitting in
my van ('s name is charlie). Charlie was sick and so we have to spent
3 days in Port Augusta to repair him. Dam expensive cars, but this is
an other story i'll tell u later.
The first festival was quite short, it
come fast and ended fast. For this festival there were two german
friends to celebrate the new year with me together. Ha those (guy and
girl) I had to show first how to get rid of worries. To easy to say
but more easy to live. Like I wrote, the last things u get rid of
yourself are the tan lines. Yes it's still unused for me to be naked
while all other are starring, even the guys. But that's the nature
and we are not use to the nature? Yes, this is probably true :(.
Anyway after a while they get used to it and stopped starring. I just
say “yes look as my dick as much as you can and get use to it.
Because this is the only way to get this conditions back to normal.
And believe me, naked people are happier one. Ha, at the end of our
farmwork time me and 4 other female wwoofers were naked at the beach.
It was hard for some to get to this point but at the end they can be
soooo glad now, and they are. Its a kind of strength inner strength
to be how you are. But for this we will love you. Love u girls had
such a awesome time at french island with you, I will never forget.
Like I wrote in the guestbook before I left McLeod Farm. “It feels
I came with nothing and left with everything. There I soo much love
and I just thought I only can be happy with my last love, ha, last
love, new love, love just love I will love u always and forever all
of you girls, ha that's fucking awesome. Where was I – ah ya the
festival the love, me the girls, no lets call them ladies or women,
no more girls, let's grow up and be a child, as I maybe always will
be.
But yeah let's go on with the festival.
The new years eve festival was over at the 1. January and at the 3.
January started fest la frog. Or better the bigger preparation. The
festival over new year was 'just a festival' but this one war a
working, building, creative, come together, sharing festival. You can
work to get 'frogs' or buy one 'frog' for 5 $. And with one frog you
get breakfast 2 frogs dinner or lunch one frog one cider or beer. Yes
it's expensive to drink alcohol in Australia but yeay, it's not that
common here anyway. If your are just yourself it's more what everyone
likes. Even more accepted than alcohol are drugs in Australia, if
your read this and you are from Germany, you will say, ouh drugs, all
are bad. But yes, if you say this, then you have actually no idea how
bad alcohol is. But this is another story. Back to the festival,
there were workshops every day where people talk about alternative
forms how to live together and how to share resources. Why does
everyone in Germany has a car, why does everyone has tools in their
workshop, so much stuff and if you have something, you bought
everyone will borrow it and after a wile its broken and you have to
buy it again. Just buy everything together, plan together live
together not separately.
There was a place called Healing Space
where you can just relax under trees give and get massages for free.
There was a secret fire which was burning all the time, the first
fire started on the fire ceremony by aboriginal peoples. The other
fires have been lit with fire from these and we had a fire circle.
This is a place where people can show what they can do with their
fire twirling or sticks or or every show with fire. This place was
next to the drumming space where drummers played African beats around
the fire. There was a love shake, if u are in the love shake you have
to share love with kisses or hugs without any kind of expectations.
Just do it just live, just love.
Ouh I found love at exactly the point
where I started to be happy independently. And that's what she sad.
At this point came the most awesomest beautiful woman in my life.
Kiana, a lady from Australia. She's cute smart pretty....to much for
these weak words. We both love just the way we are. Funny, hey we
laughed almost 2 days till she had to go. And from this day when she
left, I felt that something is missing and I felt unhappy. But what
is this unhappiness if you always need another person to be happy.
Then I sad, no you were happy before and maybe you will never see her
so just be independent. Have you ever loved independently? What
stupid new stuff is this in my life, but lets play this game. And I
play it pretty good now. I have to learn, sometimes few times a day,
but it runs. What if I will never see her from one day to the next?
As she says, I will love her from a distance, but I will still love
her. That's it, and to be independent I have to trust in god in the
universe in me in what ever that I get what I need to be happy. It is
here it is there all the time I only have to allow it. And if I need
woman to be happy, god knows, he will help me. Ha and the answer
after this meditation at the next day where two nice pretty
interesting girls. Just came, just like hey you are nice, lets talk.
And I just get with this the sign that I am on the right way.
Independent love, ha the last time was it unconditional, its pretty
similar. Its maybe the opposite maybe the same maybe the partner what
ever its the new thing I am trying now. Since I recognize that god is
a comic artist and has fun to make stupid funny things in the humans
life, why to life then in strict rules everybody is living in without
knowing why, ha how funny human are. Like ants. But yeay as you play
another game as your friends, they will be maybe never your friends,
they don't make or like changes maybe so goodbye though. Hello
thousand new friends and what is better than friends they love u and
show u?
Enough philosophy there will be plenty
new post in my other plot if I find time to type them in to the
computer. Its like I am learning faster than I can write all. But
yeay I thing that's IN that's in love in life are u in a life now,
then don't forget to love.
That's it my friends from the farm. I
just wonna inform you that I have a campervan now. I bought it for
2000 bugs and spend now almost the same in reparation camping
insurance and registration. Before I start my trip to Perth, I had
some beautiful lovely days in Melbourne with new friends of the
festival and my love Kiana. All is like a fairytale like I am in the
wonderland. And she is my elf, I can't wait to see the waterfalls and
ride with you and your horses trough the wild.
Ohhh Woooooww
